The Ugly Truth and Beyond

(approximate reading time 5-10mins)

A belated Happy Thanksgiving to all!

I hope that your holiday is filled with community, love, healing and abundance.

I had a wonderful Thanksgiving celebration that was simple and sweet: only myself, my sweetheart, my new friend/housemate and her daughter, an afternoon movie (Justice League!) and later, “breaking bread” together, but only very light cooking on our parts (thank you, “Evolution Fast Food”, for our vegan meal!).  

Done!  Lovely!

Sitting down to eat with my friends, I was overcome with gratitude, and we toasted our appreciation of each other and the beautiful day we were experiencing together.  But something was moving in the shadows of my awareness, and I couldn’t ignore it.

Here I was engaging with others in a tradition that has come to be about sharing with a community of loved ones the prosperity, abundance and blessings that are experienced-symbolized by plentiful dishes of food and drink-and in the midst of my appreciation and joy, something was bothering me and didn’t quite sit well in the moment.

I couldn’t help but think about the genocide of the Native Americans. 

Yes, I’m going there.

In honor of the sign Scorpio, I have to talk about the ugly truth on which this holiday is built.

It’s very Scorpionic to look at these uncomfortable truths within ourselves at an individual and collective level.  It is during the Scorpio times that we have extra support for doing the “dirty-work” of confronting our shadows, our wounds, our unconsciousness and healing.

And as a collective, we have never healed from the genocide of the Native Americans.  All of that remains in shadow.

But I think all of the wounds and pain from this (and many other collective wounds from other events in our history), the beginning of our country, are beginning to rise to the surface of our consciousness for confrontation, healing and ultimate transformation.

So, there I was celebrating with friends, but I felt like crying because the Native American pain and wounding is my wounding.  It is all of our wounding.

If we are all celebrating with gratitude, then we must bring into awareness the ugly truth that we are celebrating the Native Americans’ great sacrifice so that we could have this country called America.

And in some twisted way, in that moment with friends, I felt like offering up a solemn “thank you” to my Native American brothers and sisters, those long gone and those still with us.

And of course, I hope the awareness doesn’t stop there but expands further and further into ancestral, collective and individual healing in this web of planetary consciousness we all share.

I know we don’t want to think about this during Thanksgiving.  I know it is uncomfortable. 

It’s also uncomfortable for all of the women and men who are courageously coming forward and revealing the ugly truths of sexual harassment and misconduct forced on them in their pasts.  I’m sure it is just as uncomfortable for them as it is for the perpetrators of the sexual abuse who are being outed.

All of these ugly truths are being brought up from the depths and into the light of day. 

This is Scorpio’s function.

I suppose we would all be paralyzed with bitterness and depression, if we only did the digging up of the shadow material but never healed it.  But if we respond well to Scorpio’s process, then we begin the healing process, and we eventually move on to Sagittarius’ processes.

Whereas Scorpio focuses a great deal of its energy on the truths buried in the shadows of the unconscious (and not all of these truths are ugly!), the truths that we don’t want to face, Sagittarius explores many more of those truths that help to lift us further out of our pain and wounding-universal truths.

At its best, the quest of Sagittarius is all about the ever-expanding journey of updating truths and ultimately coming to know those universal truths about our existence that would serve to anchor our joy, inspiration and hope for the future of our species.

Now, with Venus and Jupiter in Scorpio and the Sun, Mercury and Saturn in Sagittarius, we are attempting to integrate these two psychic functions and evolutionary processes.  

Let’s get down into the muck of those ugly truths and do that Scorpionic work of making the unconscious conscious and healing, but let’s not stop there.  Let’s continue on in our evolutionary journey into the exalted truths of life and existence that our Sagittarius natures can help us to know and integrate into our ever-spiraling journey of expansion.

One of these truths is that in spite of the ugliness we have done and continue to do as individuals and as a collective, there is beauty alongside it. 

There is far more beauty.

And there is far more love than we have ever been capable of comprehending.

We are growing and becoming more aware.

We are brothers and sisters, all, in this ancient, collective evolutionary process.

I am hopeful that we are more ready than ever for some of these more loving and beautiful truths to dawn in our hearts.

Season of Virgo: Humility & Service

(approximate reading time 10mins)

I felt a distinct shift around August 22nd.

Could you feel it, too?

Perhaps it was because we recently had two new moons in Leo, simultaneously with the sun and mars in Leo.  And one of those new moons was a super-charged solar eclipse.

All of this planetary energy in Leo during the season of Leo made for quite an amplified Leo energy in the atmosphere and psyche, especially if you have any prominent planets in Leo in your natal chart.

Romance was likely in the air, whether it was renewing old sparks or enjoying new flames of passion. Having fun would have been a high priority.  Party much?!  Creative self-expression is another area that would have been highlighted with so much emphasis on Leo, also known as “the performer”.  Playing in general is Leo territory and letting the inner child express boldly and spontaneously so that it can be appreciated, praised and even applauded.  Being fully present as the unique self, experiencing and sharing joy, is Leo’s aim.

This energy was thick!

So it might have felt like hitting a wall of some kind when the sun transited into the humble sign of Virgo on August 22nd.

I felt it as a distinct impulse to “get down to business” and do some much needed work that I had been putting off.

The Virgo function is very different than Leo.  Whereas Leo basks in the glory of its ego with a kind of enlightened selfishness at its best (and an obnoxious self-absorption at its worst!), Virgo attempts to acknowledge the flaws of ego, set it aside and get down to business working on crafting some skill that can be offered up to others in the spirit of service.  With Virgo, it’s not all about fun and joy.  It’s about being responsible, fixing and improving things that are broken (including the ego) and doing what needs to be done because it is there to be done and, quite frankly, who else will do it?!

It takes humility to set the ego aside and place the focus on meaningful work that can be of use to ourselves and/or others, and Virgo, at its best, has this humility in spades.

But what about Virgo’s worst?

Have you ever been so hard on yourself, so self-critical, that you felt like disappearing?  But before the disappearing act, you would definitely punish yourself with feelings of guilt and shame?  And this self-flagellation would be so intense that no self-sacrifice would have been too miserable to assuage those self-defeating thoughts and feelings?

This is an extreme picture, I know.  But this is the worst of Virgo.  

During Virgo season we are prompted to be critical of ourselves, our lives and even others.  The task is to see what is wrong and what is broken so that it can be adjusted, fixed and improved.  Virgo’s vision of perfection is meant to keep us striving to do our best, not to demean and punish ourselves.

So, if you have been feeling a bit of hopelessness at the reality of your current circumstances or have been beating yourself up as you acknowledge the gap between where you are and where you would like to be, stop, take a deep breath, and use this Virgo energy to discern one or two things you can work on and improve and get down to business!

And while you are working away, remember to be kind to yourself and to always practice unconditional self-acceptance.

Embrace the paradox that you are perfectly imperfect and always will be. But don’t let that stop you from continuously striving to bring out your full potential and excellence as a service to be offered to the world.

And right about now the world desperately needs your service.

Welcome to Virgo season.